We were having a great night at the gym working out hard together and then in the sauna I typed my Bereavement counselors name, “Natalie” to see if we could have a session tomorrow, but only got up to Nat on my phone when a bunch of other contacts who I didn’t know popped up, like ‘Natalie – Tinder’ and Natascha or something. The thing is this was the 3rd or 4th time this had happened since Vitor logged me into his YouTube account so I could use his premium for free. Ever since then (a few weeks now) I’ve been watching names pop up that I don’t want to see (his ex-wife, her dad, girls names with where he met them- Tinder, Salsa, countries). The first few times I was hurt upset and confused. By now I was just annoyed and over it. So I deleted his YouTube account from my phone and then when we got back in the car I told him.
I didn’t think much of it, just wanted to let him know what I saw because I think I felt guilty for seeing things that I wasn’t meant to see. But once he got quiet, I got weird and thought maybe I shouldn’t have told him? He thought it was weird that it bothered me and that I couldn’t just keep using his account but I told him I wasn’t mad or accusing him off anything. I just wanted to be real with him and let him know what happened. Then I got defensive, distant, and weird with him.
oh mommy... 