First night back in bus life and I was so happy to come back in here but feeling so uncomfortable next to him.
I have been so happy, comfortable, free, and at peace the past few weeks on my own that I’m feeling irritated at how unpleasant our reconnect has been for me.
I’m upset that I care who he’s looking at on IG, that I’m afraid he’s hiding it from me, that it makes me want to see if there’s anything he’s hiding from me. I’m irritated that I have to be considerate or coordinate or be in the space of his upset.
I wish I didn’t care
oh mommy... 